It's been 1 week and a day

Its been 1 week and a day since i stepped down as a chairperson...To me after i have stepdown as chairperson, i felt that all the stress, pressure and heavy responsibilities that i have been carrying for more than a year had disappeared...I also felt that my freedom of doing whatever i want it there... I can do whatever i want without thinking that i must show a good example and also be a good leader of the class anymore... I dont nid to worry about CMC meetings or trainings... All the burden that was dumped on my shoulder is now gone... And its gone for good... I want to say thank you to all my subject teachers and also friends who have been helping and guiding me all the time... And also remind me about my responsibilities as chairperson.... Thx Y'all... Now.... I'VE GOT FREEDOM......

6th April, 2009

On the 6 of April,2009....I step down as my class chairperson... On that day also my form teacher, Ms Lee Yin Shih had fully recover from her surgery and was back in school...From the day she was not around, i had to take over her place as a form teacher... I have to take the class attendance every morning and chase after people who are absent the day or days before for their medical certificate or parents letter, help to guide the teachers or relief teachers in the class things... Everything just doesn't seems to be going that well... Sometimes things went out of control and i can't handle it that much... My vice chairperson, Brenda, has been doing her job very well... But for my 2nd vice chairperson, Wei Jian, i dont think he has done a good job... I know that i dont have the right to judge him but haiz i dont know what to say ady... When i see ms Lee after school to tell her that i want to step down, throughout the whole day, i was thinking about it...Then when it comes after school, i think again and my decision is final... I went and sit beside Ms Lee, then before i want to say it, her phone rang... Then i turned to Bryan and say that i wana step down from being a chairperson and then all of a sudden, i cried...After Ms lee answered her phone call, she sat beside me then she calm me down and i let everything out... I cried my heart out... I told her that i have some people in mind that i would nominate as the chairperson and 1 of them is Lieyana... After that, i went out of class and cried again... Ms lee told me that if crying makes me feel better then cry more... I cried not because that i'm sad or what but because i feel so stress up with the pressure and also i cant be handling everything on my own and in the same time balancing it with my studies... My results flug down very badly... I cant study maths in class because i dont understand what the teacher teach... Well i hope Brenda will be a much better chairperson as i am... After all, after being a chairperson for 1 year and 3 months, i think that it's time for me to focus on my studies and also catching ip up... I'm so way behind time... My art is stressing me up... My mid year examinations is just a round the corner... My o lvl mother tougue also stress me up... Haiz.... That's how life in secondary 4... taking national examination... Lots of pressure...But after all, being a student is the best experience in one's life... That's all...